GOD REVEALS HIS HAND IN 3 DREAMS OF DEATH
(months before temptation came)
Feeling Your joy...knowing Your love
Praising Your Holy name,
Worshiping through Your Holy Spirit Lord
My heart was set aflame.
I was not aware O Lord
Of the peril that would soon come forth.
I felt so secure in You O Lord,
So happy...I felt I could not love You more.
O death...do not come near my door,
Though darkness entered in
Searching for fertile soil
That soon gives way to sin.
So perplexing were those dreams,
Who was...it...to die Lord?
Not once...not twice...but thrice Lord
You warned me in my dreams.
I didn't understand Lord,
No wisdom could I glean.
Then one day..my sure footing slipped away.
I tumbled through the earth below,
And saw the wat that demons go.
The demons were so subtle,
And when I tried to fight them lord
The battle took on a tantilizing twist.
The trap was opened wide,
And I almost fell inside.
My mind rebelled...my spirit froze,
My body so on fire.
Is it possible O Lord
To contemplate desire?
The pain...the unrelenting passion...the constant ache,
For sure I thought my heart would break.
The dam of tears broke loose
I was in such despair.
Would it be possible
That my soul could be repaired?
The raging tide my soul did fight
Until I felt inside I died.
I didn't come through the battle
With flying colors.
The enemy beat me black and blue.
He tried his best to steal my loving heart from you.
"Lord! my spirit cried,
You told Peter, satan desires to sift you as wheat"
But You prayed for him Lord!
...You Prayed for him!
In renting sobs I cried to You,
"O Jesus Lord, please pray for me
And slay these demons...and let my soul go free!!!"
Yet it was not my faithfulness,
Nor my love for You,
I shamefully will attest
That brought me through the battle
And helped me pass the test.
But it was the dreams You gave me Lord,
That put Your fear in me,
And kept me from the danger
That my poor soul could not see.
Your stern warnings lord
So perplexed my soul.
I fought the light with shades of darkness,
And almost flunked the test.
The enemy is sooo strong Lord,
So devious...so mind captivating...
So soul destroying.
His grip is iron strong.
Yet my spirit knew O Lord,
It knew where I belonged.
And I was given a glimpse
Of the pitfalls of fallen man,
the torture...the pain...
Extending far and wide,
Engulfing and destroying whole families
With the sins we cannot hide.
O the painful path that is so well worn,
Was not to be my thorn.
Though my soul entertained the ways of man,
My spirit was restrained
...By Your Holy Sprit Lord.
And when the battle was almost through
Lord, You gave me another glimpse of You.
In yet another dream
You showed me Lord...the battle won.
What the enemy would have me believe as fun
Was really ammunition for his gun,
That would paralyze...or destroy my life
In death...or heartache...I do not know.
It was a battle that left my emotions bleeding and raw.
A festering wound that gave off grief.
My tortured mind and spirit received no relief.
But You revealed Your hand O Lord,
And led me by the way,
That kept me safe O Lord
From the dangers of the day.
I thank You Lord...I praise You Lord
For Your Holy Spirit true.
He brought me through the fires of hell,
And led me straight to You.
In love and gratefulness
My tears washed o'er my soul,
For Jesus, Lord, Lamb of God,
Your truths have blessed and made me whole.